Sunday, March 2, 2014

This Week I'm Going To...

It's been a few months since I posted anything on here, but that's because things got a little crazy. I'm back now though and ready for action. Let's get typing.

It's already March. How bizarre is that? New Years was the other day, dammit. How did time slip by this quickly?

All I can think about is how, as usual, my resolutions have been so sadly neglected. Poor things, just sitting there like old toys waiting for someone to pick them up and play.

The problem with resolutions is they're just so hard to keep. I always start the year with so many grand ideas about how I'm going to learn 12 languages and run everyday and climb Mount freaking Everest. But who the heck has time for all that?

I've come up with a solution. I always hear how setting goals that are too big is the number one way to fail at them, so here is my idea. Gone are the goals for the year, thrown out to make way for goals of the week. I find that I tend to put off my new years resolutions because I think "Eh, I have a whole year." By giving myself a week to complete my task, there's more immediacy to it and I'll (hopefully) actually get it done.

Let's get productive.

I'm always talking about how I want to diversify my style, so my goal for this week is to try a completely different makeup style every day.

See how simple that is? I have my overall goal that I'd eventually like to reach, and the small task I set myself for the week to achieve it. Baby steps. Gotta build the habits up before I can make it a lifestyle.

Want to join me on my weekly venture? Comment below with your mini goal for the week, and then join me next Sunday to see how you did and set yourself another goal!

With love, hugs, and a tray of fresh baked cupcakes,

Saturday, November 9, 2013

Outlook changes outcome...

The Secret, karma, good energy... Call it whatever you want, but I'm a huge believer that your outlook changes your outcome. There's just something about your mindset that plays an active part in how events happen and ultimately how they resolve.

It's been about 2 months now since I made the move to New York City, and things are happening to me that I never could've dreamed about. Or rather, I'm making them happen. I came to this city with one thing in mind: to live. I know, that sounds as cliche as a freaking Hallmark card, but it's the truth. For the first time in my life I am completely in charge of myself, a thought that is just as exhilarating as it is frightening.

In the time that I've been here, I've filled myself with theatre. So. Much. Theatre. I'm lucky enough to say that the ratio of shows I've seen to weeks that I've lived here is 1:1. I've also filled myself with the diversity. I mean, I come from the heart of Miami so diversity is not a new concept to me. In fact, it's where I feel most comfortable--standing in a sea of people where every person has a different story to tell. Even still, New York is a universe of its own and I've made it a point to really see it. I go to Central Park and sit there, watching people walk by and speak different languages that I don't understand. There was a ballerina there one day, and all I could think was how I was sitting in a park, enjoying one of the most beautiful dance forms on the planet for no other reason than because she was there.

Or I'll go to the Bethesda fountain and just sit there and stare at the angel. I'm not even religious, but there's something about that angel that gives me butterflies.

This is my home now.

I've also met my idol. "Idol"--that word has a weird taste to it, but I don't quite know what else to call him. Tom Hiddleston is hands down my absolute favorite actor, and pretty much my favorite person. (Haha!) As an actress though, he inspires me all the time to get better at my craft. As cheesy as it sounds, his success was a huge inspiration and driving force for me when I was auditioning for colleges and just generally going through a really stressful time in deciding what I wanted. The only thing I regret about meeting him was that I was too tongue tied to say any of that to him. All I could strangle out was a "Tom, can I get a picture with you?" and a much too emphatic "Thank you so much!" after he'd taken my phone and selfied with me.
He's holding my phone. I can't deal with it.

Still, I met him.

All of this, and so much more. I finally met a long-time friend and someone whom I look up to so very much, the super talented Kai Altair. She's a singer/songwriter who makes the most ethereal magical music and we've been in contact for several years now. She took me around the East Village where we had a delicious dinner and talked non stop.

Life is happening.

Actually, this reminds me of something I just read for an assignment in my acting class. Yoshi Oida, a Japanese actor who wrote a book called The Invisible Actor talks about an emptiness that every actor should have inside them, called Ma. Emptiness sounds very negative, doesn't it? But it's not at all. It's more like a waiting emptiness, if that makes any sense. You are empty in the sense that you are receptive to the world around you. If you're shut off in your own head, full of your own thoughts and inhibitions, you won't be able to really experience what's going on. There has to be a space inside of you that can be filled with the outside world so that you can really interact with it.

I didn't even realize that this is exactly what I started doing the moment I moved here. Just opened up a space in myself and every day when I wake up, I neatly pack up yesterday's experience and store it away in my head to clear up room for the new day. So far, it's worked.

Have you ever felt this way? That a simple change in your attitude made all the difference in how your life was going?



Tuesday, November 5, 2013

Suppose I'll Just Say It

Hello there. I figured I'd just get that awkward first post out of the way. There's nothing more annoying than not knowing what to say and then never saying anything for fear of making the wrong impression. Which is why I've typed out this post about a hundred times, only to delete it and type it out again.

But, no more. I'm going to kick fear in the ass and just hit publish once I finish this.

This is my blog. A blog in which I own. In this here blog, I'll be talking about my life, experiences, and just cool stuff I learn along the way. I hope you'll join me in reading. This is almost like an awkward first date. I'm courting you in the attempts of impressing you so you'll keep coming back for more.

I suppose this is the "getting to know you" phase of the date, hm? All right, so here's a little bit about me. Just a taste to tease, a girl can't give everything away on the first date, now can she?

My name is Ashlynn, and I'm currently studying musical theatre in college. From that information, I hope the inference can be made that I love theatre, and I am a singer. That's the major occupation of my time at the moment, but I also have a long list of TV series I watch that takes up the remaining hours of my day. Also, my favorite Disney princess is Ariel.

Oh, and this is my face.

Hopefully my incredible good looks (read: sarcasm) and dashing wit have intrigued you enough to possibly check back once I've posted something new. I'll hopefully have a post up later this week.

Lots of love,
Ashlynn